What would you say to me today --- I can only imagine.

4:20 a.m., July 2, 1996 my father died in my arms. 

It was not the first time he left me, but it would be the last. I have felt closer to my father in death than I ever did in life.  My father allowed me a gift.  He allowed me to be with him when he died. It was not a Hollywood moment by any stretch ~ it was terrifying, amazing and miraculous ~ all at the same time.

Mother Nature never let's me forget for long that it is "SHE" who is in charge

Yarn in the Yard

(Written 5/10/11) --

And only the porch steps remain

God Keeps Reminding Me That I Matter

To matter.  That was my answer when I was growing up and people asked, "What do you want to be when you grow up?"  I knew what I meant even if others did not.  Since I was small I have always felt that I was placed here to have a positive impact on a large number of people.  It is nothing I can explain ~ it is simply something I have always known.  The "knowing" has been one of my biggest frustrations as year after year of my life has drifted by.  But not anymore.  I feel saturated in God's peace and will right now.  In this moment right now I am perfectly placed.

God Gave the Heavens Themselves Boundaries......So I should have them too!

I was taught if you are a threat to Satan he will try to attack you!  Notice I said T-R-Y!  I am most certainly on the right track because Satan has me on his radar right now ~ but Praise God!! and Praise God again!! God is in control - all I have to do is listen to Him.  I have had three conversations recently regarding relationship boundaries (i.e., how someone should/shouldn't treat you - what is and isn't acceptable behavior towards another person, etc.)

The Day Hell Yawned - April 27, 2011

The power, the horror, the beauty.  Wanting to run but transfixed in awe.

Deafening

Blinding

Searing

It accosted all of the senses.

Well - Paul - When you say it THAT WAY then I do see how singleness is a gift

I had the pleasure of hearing a positive sermon on singleness last Sunday.  For once a pastor spoke of singleness as a gift ~ not a burden or a sentence to be endured.  Best of all the pastor never once said, "While you are waiting on God's mate for you...."  There is no way I can do his sermon justice so I will not attempt to but I WILL give you the link to the sermon, the scripture reference and some of the major points I came away with.

Singleness and The Next Generation 

 

~ 1 Corinthians 7 ~ 

Stagger not at the promises of God - Instead STAND!!!

On Wednesday of last week I watched the  Potter's House Bible Study via live-stream.

On this night Pastor Sheryl Brady was bringing the word.  She preached on Faith that Works.  I admit I never heard Pastor Brady preach - but I figured if T.D. Jakes allowed her in his pulpit she must be good ~ and I figured correctly.  Pastor Brady brought a powerful word from God ~ and laid it right at my feet. 

There were many powerful moments in Pastor Brady's sermon but the one thing in particular that stood out most was - STAND!  Stand flatfooted in your faith.

"You must stand flatfooted and say, 'God said it, I believe it.'  Everything you get from God will come BY FAITH."

 "God's promises are established and they will S-T-A-N-D!"

Stand Up. Stand Strong. Stand Fast. BUT STAND!

The last couple of week's I have been receiving a word from God. One word as a matter-of-fact.  Stand. 

A couple of months ago when I was facing what I thought may be a very serious medical crisis I prayed a simple but powerful prayer, "God no matter what I will stand! Regardless of the outcome God I will stand."  I said this prayer over and over until it became almost a mantra. I said this prayer out loud with a firm voice and I said the prayer in my heart as I wept uncontrollably with fear.  No matter how I prayed the prayer the end result was the same - the eventual peace and power of God would flow over me.
This particular prayer originated from the words I heard T.D. Jakes say in a sermon.  The sermon was many years ago but I can still see him on the tv screen saying loudly and proudly, "....if all else fails I WILL STAND! When all around me flee ~ I WILL STAND! When all HELL breaks loose ~ I WILL STAND!"

When I received my medical diagnosis Bishop Jakes' long forgotten words came to mind....STAND.